on the second day Jacey did Homework

SOOO it's my second day of COLLEGE !!! and I hafta say that it is more like high school then I would have liked... The huge difference being most of the people in my class are much older then me. One of the first things I learned on my first day was that I have no idea how to talk to older people. If you think about it the only older people I've dealt with are like my parents, my family, and the teachers I've had. But the rest of the people, the other people, the real people living their lives from day to day behind my back, it is them that I have to deal with now, and them I have to learn how to talk to.

My art history book is FUCKING HUGE! and I have to so much, but it is so huge that i cant take it with me to read on the bus. My bus ride, by the way, is 90 minuets long, I transfer twice to get home. The 72 is always full of people, just packed in.

So in conclusion I have learned a lot about people and more about the streets. You just have to deal with the people on the bus, just have to let them sit next to you, just let them pull that yellow stop requested wire every block, because no one wants to fucking walk...but neither do you so... you just have to let it be.

I really need to do my homework...now...

naked icecream

I just want to change my music to the loudest angriest godforsaken rock that I own and run naked around the house with scissors and fire, while eating all the icecream. unfortunately I ate all the icecream the last time I was home alone... Yes I am still a child,tomorrow is my first day of college.
I got my hair cut today. Its shorter. The end.
I'm really nervous about tomorrow. My whole life whenever I do something new in the name of progress I always feel like someone is going to jump in my face and say " what the fuck are you doing here? you don't belong here! you don't even know what you're doing here! get the fuck out of here!!!". Really these are just the questions I'm asking myself in my head. Only when I'm with another person can I feel comfortable, because they can justify why I'm there. I. Have. Problems. It's a good thing that I'm going to college alone, otherwise I would never do anything on my own.
God I'm a looser, a looser that is fucking hungry...

at the bottem of the lake

I had the whole day to myself today, and I was board! So I started playing Twilight, I play on and off ( more off really) last time I was just at the beginning of the Lake bed temple. Let me just say that it is a complete and total BITCH! What the fuck Nintendo!
With the help of mucho cheats I made it through, and I have just quite after being thrust into the desert. All I hafta say is ...............I love Zelda!
but I've looked into my future and I don't see much Zelda in it. I'm hanging out with friends tomorrow ( after looking after my moms store... heart full of HATE!!! ), Saturday I'm going to a party, and Monday I start my first day of college! Sunday will be spent cleaning and getting mentally prepared for the next day...I might melt...
I feel like I'm in a video game now. When I went to the bathroom I started to look for items...

new new new!!!

Well just two news really. today my new laptop came in the mail along with it's new laptop computer case, and my new Zune came in the mail today as well! The old one died and I had to send it in to get it fixed but they ended up sending me a new one... I have been suffering since it broke and now that the new ones here I'm a little crazy!
Blahh I'm really glad that its all here and I can finally have my own technological space, but setting up is a bitch!!!

I hung out with mi amigos today, we went to Hawthorn. I didn't buy anything, on the whole no one really did, but it was fun to hang out and search through the crazy stuff they have around there.

Tomorrow I'm going to write thank-you-notes to all the people that gave me money for graduating, and thats going to suck royally! but I suppose it has to be done...

Graduation

It's official! I have graduated high school!




Thank GOD!

Till The Next Goodbye

One of my favorite Rolling Stones songs, if not my favorite.

Yesterday was my last day of school. Today I had to go to school because of the senior assembly. It was dumb, we watched the same people get award after award for having no social lives, leaving the rest of us with the most anti climactic end to our high school experience.

After that crap I hung out with my good buddies Katelyn and Jorden. We watched movies, ate food and played with sticks. It just gos to show that we may have just graduated high school, but we haven't stopped playing with sticks.....ah we sure do love sticks.....





I watched Shoot 'em Up for the first time today, and LOVED it! It was a pure guy movie and every moment rocked! I will never look at carrots the same way ever again.

There are no happy endings...

I only have one day left of high school. I am , FOR REAL, graduating! It seems like everything I have struggling against has lead me up to this point in my life, and everything is concluding all around me. It's maybe that graduating is one happy ending, but the one thing that life has taught me is that there are no happy endings because nothing ever ends( thank you The Last Unicorn ) just because my high school life is very much over doesn't mean that my life is over. I have college to look forward to in just a couple weeks, which will lead me to making decisions about my life after college, then I will have to live out that life, hopefully have some kind of romance, and if I'm lucky have a kid or two. Even then the story of my life wont end, because with an end of one chapter there is a beginning of a new one, and even after I die the story of my life will continue with the lives of the people I leave behind ( If I don't grow up to be a crazy hermit!!! ). But I was just writing about high school wasn't I...hmmmm...
Anyway, I need to get myself together for college. I'll be getting my new laptop soon and that's going to ROCK. I wont have to borrow my moms anymore, or wait for her to get off it! Then I'll start my new classes at MHCC. I was talking to my cousin Jessie on Sunday and he told me that he was impressed that I got into Writing 121, he said that most people don't get tested into that class and that he wasn't when he first got in. To think that I Jacey could be better than Jessie the golden child at something!!! Well it gave me a great confidence boost.
Today was kind of a crap day. When I got home all I did was mope around the house, and I ended up watching TV which is weird for me because I hate TV. I watched Charmed, a show that I am now intrigued by at the fault of my buddy Katelyn. Blahh it just fuels the dorky fire! I will probably watch it every afternoon now, how sad... and I thought I had given up TV for good...
Speaking of shows I started to rent the Aeon Flux series from netflix. At first I didn't like it as much, but then once I got to the episode where Aeon lets Trevor Goodchild take her DNA and make a clone out of it so that he could use it for his own fiendish pleasures I was intrigued, and ended up liking the show a lot. I loved the episode where they were stuck in that weird cube place with the pink(maroon, jasmine...whatever)liquid stuff all around it, and they could only escape in that molding thing. It kinda toched my heart that Goodchild is like so in love with Aeon that he wants to save her even though she like fucks with his business whenever she can. Ohh and in the episode where that one couple tries to get to the other side of the wall together and she ends up not making it and damaging her back, I loved it when Goodchild was like; "I know Aeon gets in through sector C, I let her do that..." (not exact words but who really cares...) it was almost sweet.... I guess I just watch it for Aeon and Goodchilds fucked up relationship... anyway can't wait to see the next five episodes, I bet they'll be as trippy as the last.